rant part 1

people dont know me

when people see me, especially people who supposedly 'know' me they think these things

hes rich

hes spoilt

hes happy-go-lucky

he has everything he wants


okay...i would simply LOVE to be all those things...but im not...and people still dont know it?! i mean helloo...people who have known me for like...2 years and more? they think the same thing? what more people who have known me for 4 months?!?!


i wrap myself around with this shell...its like a hard protective layer of lies...so that no one can see what i really am...cause i hate what i really am, i hate it! im so embarrased with it...its like...i dunno...i dont wanna be what i am! but i cant not be what i am which is so freaking irritating!

uuurrrgggghhh....i feel like ripping peoples heads out

first of all i am not rich...the fact that i went to a private skl does not make me rich...did you know some people in cempaka even come in kancils? most cempakans are just middle class people trying to act rich...okay yes i was one of them fineee...but now i realise that im not even middle class...or rather im lower middle classs...infact im so god damn broke that i cant even buy my friends presents anymore...you know some people arent even THAT rich and they can afford all that stuff...but then i guess it was my fault that i had super rich friends...

IM SO JEALOUS OF PEOPLE
i know that money is the root of all evil and crap like that
and this is all material stuff and we cant take it to heaven
and it doesnt really matter

but it does to me...deep down inside...so fine im rotten to the core...deal with it

but that doesnt mean i HAVE the wealth i want

Ng GB : rich, lives just in kenny hills, has designer this and that, has everything she wants and blablabla, the usual fantastic story

Harvey Wong : gets what he wants, has all the clothes he needs, and an unexplainable amount of pens and pencil boxes

Gregory Tan : uses his credit as easily as he breathes, doesnt care, almost doesnt even know the value of a dollar, again ditto the harvey, and hes spoilt okay!!! loses his handphone gets an even better one before i can even laugh

Putra Rezza : no need to explain la

the list goes on

so wrap it up? the people that i know are rich other than the above mentioned are

rachel tan, rachel chin, chong ian, ai vyn, chryseis tan, law qioa yi, constance yap, min yang, azlin, li hong, hui eng, ching mun, and actually everyone i KNOW

and im jealous of all of them!
no time now so will continue with the other points later