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A revised form of conversation that I had with guy X last month

Me : hey...
X : hey....
X : how you doing?
Me : Im great...you?
X : oh Im fine thanks....how come you suddenly decided to message me after all this time?
Me : I never see you online!
X : yeah...I always see YOU online
Me : oh really? I thought I blocked you...must be some mistake...I shall take more care next time
X : ....was there any particular thing you wanted to tell me?
Me : not really...I decided that today is going to be my occasional feel-sorry-and-talk-to-those-sad-pathetic-arses-who-were-utterly-disastrous-friends-to-you day
X : oh, so now Im one of those on your hit list? Im honoured, really I am
Me : well, you should be! I mean, so many struggle and clamber to be on my list, and you made it almost instantaneously
X : I wonder why. Maybe because after all those years of friendship you decided you had no use for me anymore and so just told me you didnt want to speak to me again?
Me : Please la, dont think I have so much time to decide who I want or dont want as friends all the time...you think thats my main goal in life is it, to hurt people at every turn?
X : Well it seems to! You even did it to Gregory who was your real friend the whole time
Me : Gregory was different okay. And who are you to tell me who are my real friends or not?
X : It was the exact same thing
Me : No it was not. I just thought that somethings may happen in the near future and so instead of enduring all that I just decided with outside help, to make it easier. Obviously I was wrong in that case, but Im rarely wrong twice.
X : you know Ruwan, I know what your problem is. You have issues with trust. When you think that someone is too close to you and is too close to breaking into your damn of stupid exaggerated emotions your just too afraid to let them see the real you.
Me : .................First of all...its dam
Secondly, your sentence is so totally wrong
Thirdly, are you watching Bold and the Beautiful or something? Your talking like a shrink who was turned away from shrink school. The REAL me? And I dont ahve issues with trust for your information. I happen to trust all of my friends because they CAN be trusted.
X : so your saying that I couldnt be trusted is it?
Me : no, Im saying that I just didnt think you were a good friend. Now just leave me alone.
X : yeah, is this how you sent away your other close friends? And then you complain about how in Form 5 you only had a few friends to confide in (sound familiar kah yang?) when its all your fault! Im surprised Azlin didnt know better about you.
Me : Azlin happened to be one of the greatest friends I have ever had. Gregory was too, and I made a mistake okay! I wanted something more dramatic and so I did what I did and it didnt turn out the way I expected it to! I shouldnt have done it in the first place, fine, I fucking get it, but does everyone have to rub that in my face? I got over this whole stupid thing earlier this year, but somehow some people just have to bring it up again right? Do you have some goddamn pact or something to annoy the living day lights out of me?
X : your not worth our time anymore to do all that shit. Thats your own doing, you controlling little piece of shit.
Me : GO TO HELL! Just because you obiously have mental problems doesnt mean I need to do anything about it. Thank God I got rid of your ass while I could, or my mental health would have been dragged down with yours! I NEVER EVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN!


oh boy...I thought the last time I would say that was in Standard 5.

Anyway, that was ADAPTED from a more cuss-filled conversation on my msn. So what do YOU think?

I so do not have issues with trust...and walls?!!?!?!?! Geez.