You know, somethings just get me riled up.

I get depressed, and I feel like ripping my heart out of my chest and gnawing on it.

Today I went blog exploring!

I read Aaron (Sim)'s blog, his brother Daniel's, and one of his links Guo Zhang.

And my jealousy meter went from



to



I really hope none of them read my blog by accident =p

If there was one skill in this world that I would want to have, it would be...

Okay fine, if there were TWO skills I would want to have it would be...

Okay...THREE skills I NEED to have are :

1. Good linguistic skills
2. Fantastic writing skills
3. Great voice (and great marketability if I want to put that voice to money making =p).


I was complaining to Seok about my HORRIBLE MARKET-PLACE ENGLISH and then after we finished,

Seok : jangan kacau!
Seok : sewing riBbons on ballet shoes
Me : no no no
Me : you can sow at 11
Seok : sew
Seok : (omg)

I can't believe I made that mistake. Omg...my level of english has gone from

to....

or even the (hotter) male version of this :



I mean...

ITS NOT MY FAULT RIGHT!!

Sometimes I wish I had gone to international school. And I don't mean when my parents were trying to make me go in Form 3. If I had gone to ELC/Mont Kiara then, I would have been ostracized! My friends would probably have ignored me for fear of being labelled 'friends with the mamak-english boy'.

I'm about to tell you a dirty little secret that no one has ever known about, not even my parents, that I've kept locked up in my bursting cupboard for ages.

When I went to ELC for my interview, I got top marks in every single subject....except for english...


I barely PASSED my English.

(and just because they asked me questions on Lord of the Flies and some French literature book both of which I have never read in my life, and then quizzed me on texts from the AMERICAN SYLLABUS it doesnt make it any better)

That was my wake up call. Before that day I thought my English was fine, since I always got one of the top 3 for English in school, and got the highest grades for annual external Cambridge and Aussy board exams, so much so that when my mom said my English was 'good for Malaysia but not for the rest of the world' I dismissed her.

BUT THEN I SAW THE LIGHT!

But what can I dooooo :'(

Sniff...Why ME?!?!?!?!!?

WHY CANT ALL THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE SCHOOLS BURN DOWN OVERNIGHT?!


GAH!