there will be a time when whatever decision made no longer matters anymore.

there will be a time when nothing else matters anymore.

there will be a time when you don't care anymore.

saying yes would have been a plus point, but it wouldn't have changed anything. saying no would be... well, it makes things easier because i know with reasonable certainty where things are headed.

you can leave, and come back... but really, it changes nothing.

i will carry on, like i have done before.

this time, no tears will be shed.

the same way it was done before in december 2005.

it's almost the exact same thing. the feelings at the end of the delivery-of-the-speech, are exactly the same to that of in december 2005, minus the anger.

just nonchalance. just a 'ohhh welll, life goes on' feeling.

i am still laughing :)