Ill be skipping Econs today cause I have an orthodontist appointment (which I already know the outcome of - my teeth have probably come out). I love Econs class. Econs class consists of, well...me surrounded with most of my friends. Econs is one class we all have in common (with the exception of Mun Yee, Yee Ping and Min Yang) and its always so fun. This will be the first Econs class Ive missed this semester. I just love it =) Not only do I like Econs, but Ms Kimmies so fun, and its more like a holiday class for me, on holiday with my friends =)
Economics - the study of choice. Maybe thats why I like it (cause Im indecisive =p)
Anyway, sorry to all you nerds out there, but this post is NOT about Economics =p
Its about what Economics class represents to me. Or more precisely, what college represents to me.
You know, when I left Cempaka there were promises to keep in touch and stuff like that, but to be frankly honest, I dont care. I would have liked to keep in contact with Gregory Tan, but our friendship fell apart in the beginning of Form 5, and so when I left school, I just didnt care about what both of us would be missing out.
Other people, especially those who went to Trinity, I realised that I could live without them. It would be fine with me if I was told that for some reason I wouldnt be able to see them again for another 10 years. I appreciate the value that they added to my schooling life, and I can never deny that, but thats one chapter of my life thats closed.
But somehow, there ARE people from Cempaka I still hold dear. They've been with me throughout EVERYTHING, and know me better than most others, and so have helped me WONDROUSLY when I was down. There are about 2 or 3. One notable one is of course Azlin =) I was there for her, she was there for me, and it was perfect.
Sharifah is a special case. Eventhough we were never ultra-close or best friends, we were still good friends. I confided in her, she didnt confide in me (because she doesnt trust me =p), but it was fine. I think our friendship soured up a bit in Form 5 because of the Gregory factor (omg, sounds so scientifically cool =p) because it came to a point where I thought it was best not to be close to her because I felt that her friendship with Gregory (though shorter than mine with either of them) trumped mine. I dont know if we would have become closer if I hadnt felt this way, but I like where we are now, and shes one person Ill really miss when I go overseas.
Amalina was my confidante in Form 3 and 4, and she was amazing. I could open up to her, and she was really a truly excellent friend in every sense of the word. Yar Sze, another special case, eventhough we dont talk that often because we never get the time to, were still close friends.
And yes, finally we come to Gregory. Gregory was an enigmatic character. We were close friends from Form 2 to Form 5, and throughout those years, he was sooo annoying, that we all loved him for it. He would annoy you, but thats what you loved about him, because you knew he didnt mean anything, and infact all his antics were what brightened up my day. He was always there for me, and I think he knows me slightly more than anyone else. If our friendship had continued to this day, I think he would be right up there on my list of true and great friends.
What else? Harvey. Harvey was a close friend, but I think we have irreconcilable differences. I think Harveys a mystery that I would love to solve. We drew apart, and didnt talk that often because he didnt approve of my friendship with Gregory. Then suddenly he would become oh-so-talkative and friendly for a short time before relapsing into distance. Before the Gregory incident I asked him what I should do, and he propelled me in that direction, but its not really his fault. I shouldnt have listened to him because of his dual-nature (ahah, emy =p). Now, when he speaks to me, even when he initiates the conversation, his tones very cold and distant, and I know he used to talk about me behind my back, so Im just very confused =p I think I will still want to meet up with him or something though when I join him in Melbourne, but just for the sake of old times.
Christine was a different matter. I did something in Form 4 I shouldnt have done, and we havent talked to this day. But I accepted it half a year later and moved on, and I only remember her when I see her at college. But I dont remember the hurt or anything, I just think 'Oh, she was from my school'. Which is good. I do wish I could remember the good times though.
Primary friends. Nicole, Christopher have vanished. They were excellent. Ro Wern is in HELP now, and my mom keeps in touch with his mom, so Im glad. 12A's for PMR! Well done. Ean, I can live without, cause I didnt talk to him much after standard 2. Faridq was a good friend and I was startled to see him in HELP as well! I think Ill invite them for lunch one day.
Back to topic : I can live without most of my school mates, but my college mates are a total different matter. They join the list dominated my Azlin, once Gregory, and all the other special people I have had in my life. I dont know how Ill survive without them, what more since Im the only one going to Australia. They mean so much to me, though they may not know it, and I just dont want college to end. I WANT TIME TO STAND STILL. Their just awesome. I hope Ive touched their lives even an eighth of how they've touched mine, because I think that itself is a whole lot.
I think that wraps up this post. The point? Accepting, moving on, but remembering the good times, and the great friends I have. I think the objectives acheived =)
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