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I am feeling reaaaaaalllllllyyyy weird.

Ever since yesterday.

I went into severe depression mode yesterday evening. It got better at night.

The minute I stepped out of Math today, I could feel the depression coming again. Got into the car, it started...

Gave someone quite a hard time just now, earlier this evening. Am really sorry.. Didn't mean to.

It went away for awhile, say about an hour, from 9.30-10.30.. now, 11.30, it's back. And it's really really bad.

I was feeling so happy, even on Sunday! I want to feel happy again..

Sigh.. If I decide to use my previous depression stints as a list-of-symptoms reference, the next stage will be isolation and not wanting to talk to people. Actually, it has started a bit already. The watery-eyes [NOTE: its WATERY EYES. NOT crying :p] part has already happened. Damn fast man-this is only the second day.

Final stage: die-hard studying. Just to numb the feelings. I will become so book-hardened that I'll just eat, study until I am dead tired, and crash into bed. It's always like this. In some aspect, books are like my.. er... therapy? Cos I'll concentrate so hard that I cannot feel anything anymore.

Maybe it's not that bad... Mocks are coming up. Hmm.

But actually.. now, the sequence of events might differ a little from the past. Some things have changed. I've a feeling it'll be the only thing that will keep me going. :)